[ see, the thing is that other people can think he's a screwup, that he's a goofball. everyone else can underestimate him, but not jack. never his jack. he's not sure how he'd feel if jack starts seeing him the way sue (or any of his loved ones at home) sees him. jack believed in him so wholly, so completely, his greatest, only fear is to have jack turn his back on him. ]
anyone else can do that, but not you
[ he doesn't mean the apology. what jack thinks of him, what he believes he can do -- that has always been the strength johnny draws on; it's what makes him strong, gives him that spark of joy that burns ever brighter in his lover's presence. ]
It's only that I know your enthusiasm. You throw yourself wholeheartedly into everything that you do. Sometimes I wonder how mere walls can contain you.
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No. I'm sure it'll be lovely. I can't wait.
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anyone else can do that, but not you
[ he doesn't mean the apology. what jack thinks of him, what he believes he can do -- that has always been the strength johnny draws on; it's what makes him strong, gives him that spark of joy that burns ever brighter in his lover's presence. ]
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but you can
if you tell me to stop, i will
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Make extra.
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is it for me to eat off you
that's an important question
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but seriously no
i dont know if there's anything you can do to make me leave you
[ which is terrifying. johnny's only just realizing the truth of this. ]
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[Nothing to try to push him away, like he has in the past with Johnny and others.]
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