It wasn't important to me. She thought that being my first would earn her some special place, that I would remember her forever. So I made it a point to forget.
[ Johnny makes a face, put-off by that. Sometimes, he forgets the drawbacks of being a prince, that at such a young age Jack would always have been used.
His heart goes out to him, and he pauses for a moment. ]
Well, that one's definitely better off forgotten. [ In a bit to steer it to lighter subjects, though: ] Did you know you're my first dude? I mean, I never was interested in guys, but you --
[Jack grins, but he doesn't want to tease him too much. He knows that Johnny's skills in the bedroom are something he prides himself on. And Jack's never had any complaints, inexperienced or not.]
[ His skills and his enthusiasm to please Jack, exploring him and learning about what he liked -- and what he didn't. Jack's so very different from the other's he'd had before, and he had awhile to get used to the fact that he's sleeping with another man, but still.
He thinks about that. ]
I don't know. The first time around I wanted to see what it would be like, you know? With another guy. The next few times are... [ More than that. ] I got hooked. I just thought of doing it again, and again with you. [ He pauses. ] I tried thinking about other dudes, you know? But -- no go.
[ Johnny's quiet for a moment, gaze softening to something tender, something reserved only for Jack. He can't imagine being denied something he'd always wanted to have -- and this potently sweet, moving moment... well.
His heart skips a beat, and he wishes he could be with Jack now, and not be talking through a screen. ] You have me, Jack. All of me. [ He sighs softly. ] You make it difficult to be away from you sometimes, it sucks.
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His heart goes out to him, and he pauses for a moment. ]
Well, that one's definitely better off forgotten. [ In a bit to steer it to lighter subjects, though: ] Did you know you're my first dude? I mean, I never was interested in guys, but you --
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[Jack grins, but he doesn't want to tease him too much. He knows that Johnny's skills in the bedroom are something he prides himself on. And Jack's never had any complaints, inexperienced or not.]
Why me?
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He thinks about that. ]
I don't know. The first time around I wanted to see what it would be like, you know? With another guy. The next few times are... [ More than that. ] I got hooked. I just thought of doing it again, and again with you. [ He pauses. ] I tried thinking about other dudes, you know? But -- no go.
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[And if they vanish without a trace? Well, their guest needs to eat.]
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[ he was sharing here! ]
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Damn, should've used it more often. [ He's grinning at him, eyes soft. ] You're incredible, you know.
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Can you imagine meeting a woman who made you forget all others? Who never even made you long for another?
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I don't have to imagine it. I mean, you're not a woman, but.
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[Johnny hasn't been with another man, says he can't imagine it. Jack has and could, but he's chosen this one.]
The one thing I never dreamed of being allowed to have.
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His heart skips a beat, and he wishes he could be with Jack now, and not be talking through a screen. ] You have me, Jack. All of me. [ He sighs softly. ] You make it difficult to be away from you sometimes, it sucks.
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You know the solution. But be vigilant.